As Death Cab for Cutie serenade’s me I can't help but listen
to the words, "I'll follow you into the dark..." and think about the
way I "try" to follow Christ.
The dark being the unknown, the terrifying or even the
exciting. But, regardless, dark.
As we prepare to pack up our lives once again, move from
another home and drive into the horizon without clear purpose or final
destination one begins to ponder ones options. Maybe God doesn't always close
all the doors. Maybe a few are left open giving one the opportunity to choose a
path. I've realized of late that I much prefer to leave the worrying to God and
just simply follow blindly what "works out". Assuming that if it
"worked out" it must be God's will.
Perhaps not entirely biblical.
Unfortunately I can't find scripture to back theology that
states, "Follow Christ blindly, without question, study or intimate relationship!"
Darn.
Even as I write I am working out the holes in my previous
theory regarding how God and I tend to communicate. I pray, I whine, I beg, I
petition, sometimes I yell violently and then I apologize promptly and wait,
assuming that whatever happens is the answer. In some circumstances this rather
primitive form of communication can be quite beneficial, useful and successful.
But as of late I can't seem to understand why this proven process has, from my
perspective, fallen short of my standards of success.
I've began to wonder if in certain situations the option to
choose and choose wisely is where the lasting wisdom is found. It's not that
either option is right or either option is wrong but rather how either option
will affect the course of one’s life. Each option respectively offers a variety
of pro's and con's that really end up being quite irrelevant in the course of one’s
life; or are they?
Are they irrelevant?
If you haven't already, I would encourage you to read this
post with heir and stature of any prominent British gentlemen of the 19th
Century. The voice that reads me what I have written inside my head sounds like
the previously described gentlemen.
Well I will leave you with the query concerning the relevance
of ones decisions on the remainder of their life. I also leave you the task of realizing
the importance of developing a biblical and effective form of communication
with Christ.
Eighth Period is here. Oh how they try my patience.
“Sit down, shut up”, yells the teacher with a strained American accent as he slowly sips his
Vitamin Water with disdain in his eyes…
goodness i love the way you write. also, this whole path thing is terribly similar to how i feel. none of the options are bad! it's just that i have to pick one because i can't have all of the candy even though the fat kid inside me just wants to hoard it all. growing up is hard.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking the old adage, "life is in the journey, not the destination" applies here but with replacing the word life with wisdom. To say that, Wisdom is found in being forced to make the tuff decisions and then living through them not in just asking and waiting for the final answer. Not always true, but perhaps true enough for these circumstances. 20/20 vision will eternally dwell in hindsight. And I've always worn glasses so make what you will of that scenario! :)
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